MY FEELINGS UNCUT!!!

I'm thinking of the perfect title for this blog but I can't...... this is just my feelings uncut!

What are the rules of finding true love? When I didn't care about guys for this position, I had a multidude of pickings. Something about the age of 30 and a host of bad experiences that Madea discussed in Tyler Perry's plays, that will make you rethink your selections of finding love. I'll admit, I never dated, I saw who I wanted and that was that. There wasn't room for hanging out, getting to know each other over periods of time and then establishing and building the relationship. So my hesitation now is my feelings of aggressiveness towards men. I don't tolerate the tinyest bit of foolishness, games, mind playing, drama, etc. I feel like I'm honest and upfront from day 1 and I EXPECT the same in return. I look for the invisible stamp on my forehead that says "Please tell her anything". Oddly it never appears at the right moment. So back to the drawing board I go. Most men associate me having kids as a sign of vulnerability and for them to run like hell. I don't argue with that theory because I feel like if a man wants ME...... it's just that, my kids are my kids, not his. A man will ONLY add value to my life not take away from it. I meet men who try to understand wholeheartedly, why I am single? Those are usually the guys that a woman puts in the friend box: cool enough to hang out with but in no way, is that woman physically attracted to him. Then there are the guys that I love to call "The Challenge". This guy, could get it, but there's always a barrier of some kind that messes up any opportunity of a connection between us. Am I the only person that feels this way? I'm sure my male readers could add to this. Some men think that women are too specific and too picky, thus the reason(s) why we as women, are still single. I'm over the whole thoughts of our black men being incarcerated or gay and that's why we can't find decent men out here in the free world. As a survivor of domestic violence for two years, I worked hard to get my life back in order and onto a happier future for myself and my children. I refuse to let anyone detour any parts of my life just to be in a relationship. I hope this blog doesn't come off as me being the angry black woman that doesn't have a man, because that's not my intentions. This blog is to show you that when you take away the author, domestic violence advocate & motivational speaker from me, I too have similar emotions and feelings that women deal with daily with dating and finding love. I'm human. I can't help that. What about when you meet that special guy and he is a ball of fun to be around but yet you still lack that emotional connection? Physical attraction was identified on the first day. How do you interact with this fellow? Do I understand why some women just settle for their snuggle bunny of a man they have, instead of finding out if the grasss is greener on the otherside? Oh and don't get me started on Trey Songz......his songs will make you grab the nearest man to you and the neighbors will know both of ya'll names before the evening is over with. What am I feeding my mind? I ask myself this question often. One minute my mind is full and fed up with the cat and mouse games that men and women play and then cupid shows up and introduces me to a yella bone brother who is exactly "my type" and before/after I laugh twice, the mystery has been revealed and it's on to the next one. Is finding love out dated? Is that just for our parents generation? Do we just settle for the "bussa babies" or the guys with hella "swagger" but nothing else to compliment his personality? Forgive me, these are just my feelings UNCUT!!!

HELP BREAK THE SILENCE OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE!!