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Sunday, January 30, 2011

DISTANT LOVER.....




Across the seas is where you lay your head
Your morning is my night
Your hello is my goodbye
The visual of the distance could not stand up
against the hours and seconds until your return

I wonder often what you are doing?
How was your day? Technology keeps us closer,
but I yearn to feel your hands touch my cheek.
I long to hear the voice of Solomon whisper in my earlobes
of all the fantasies that we will conquer someday.

The sea that seperates us for now,
I wonder if the same birds that fly over my head
are headed to skies where you are.

Distant lover......

At night, I inhale the sweet memories of the last time
we were together.
Remember that warm liquid that blessed our reunion?
In the night, we layed next to each other,
your hands softly explored my innermost being......

Distant lover.....

You are closer to me than the man that's standing next
to me in the cafe line.
Your footprints pant on my soul, like a deer that thirsts
for water: gently, softly, gently, patiently and with
each stroke, my heart reaches the ultimate climax.

Distant lover.......

My fingers roam across this keyboard and I imagine
your amber colored skin.
The smile that your audience privately enjoys, releases
postive energy into this world.

One day....

Someday.....

I long to see my distant lover and when that time comes, God will bless our union.

Friday, January 21, 2011

SOMETHING IS MISSING






Sometime ago when we were carefree, holding hands and writing each other notes in between the hallways of social identity, that was the highlight of our day. First love, where did you go? Something is missing in this story that I wrote of my future. Our future. I painted this elaborate portrait on a canvas, made only for you, but something is still missing. That fire, aggressive but yet tender stroke of each attempt of writing on your walls has left me embracing now, what could've been then. Something is missing......

Today, I look around and see all the memories of what we shared yesturday and know that I was happy in those pictures. But at this moment right now, I can't put my finger on it, but something is missing. I remember waking up in the middle of the night, awaiting to hear your voice and remembering every word your still voice said to me. Today, I turn back to you because I recognize that yes indeed, something is missing.

What was missing all of this time you ask? It was my first love of course....... writing!!!

BREAK THE SILENCE OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE!!!

Thursday, January 13, 2011

A NEW ME >>>>>> REDEFINED





I created a new photo album on Facebook entitled, A NEW ME >>>>>> REDEFINED...... This concept came about because although 2010 was a new beginning for me healing from a tragic past of domestic violence, I rediscovered the new person I have become. I learned how to function and deal with the "new me", because trust me, I was clueless. I could tell you stories all about the old me, but this new person that I have become, is something else and I am taking several attempts trying to get used to it. I kind of feel like I'm a character in Terry McMillian's new book, Getting to Happy.

I will say that I am now more humble, patient and willing to help anyone that needs help, encouraging words, love, motivation, advice, etc. I'm so happy you all didn't get to meet the self-centered, selfish, evil, conceited, rebellious person that I used to be. I only cared about myself and what I wanted. NOT anymore.....I cried the day I twisted my hair because I felt the presence finally of the redefined woman that I am now. For once, I did something that I wanted to do, because I WANTED IT! It wasn't about how I thought people would think about my decision to go natural. I erased that image that all light skinned African American women, have to be cute and fierce and hair flowing down our backs. I've mentioned several times that since I did the big CHOP in October 2010, I've accepted the real me and not the person everyone wants me to be. I hid behind my hairstyles a lot and just explored too many different options. My hair was healthy permed but I always longed to have blonde locs someday. I was too shallow and not confident enough in myself to go through the transition, until now.

Am I suggesting everyone go out and whack off all of your hair off to feel and experience freedom, like me.........of course not. That's what worked best for me. I enjoy my little crazy looking afro that is growing continously.

I AM A NEW ME THAT IS REDEFINED AND I LOVE IT!!!


BREAK THE SILENCE OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE!!!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

STEP OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE

So here's the deal, I have been getting "coached" from several different sources on ways to be single, mingle, have a good time and enjoy this new and exciting life, I've stumbled upon. I must say there was one rule that I was totally stubborn against following at first: LET GO OF EVERYTHING YOU WERE TAUGHT AND HEARD!!! Now, I'm half way cool with this idea or rule, only because of the saying that you shouldn't forget about your past. I admit, this single-dating life is CRAZY, at times! Making the time to meet people and not staying in the shadows, where no one will notice you or remember your name is definitely not the way to go. You want to be approachable when you are single, but sometimes we hide behind and embrace being single, to avoid the possibilities of rejections, heartbreaks, or fear of repeating the same mistakes over and over. If this sounds like you........ guess what? Me too!!!

Stepping out of your comfort zone takes alot of courage and patience. This means having an open mind for ways that new opportunities, can squeeze into your mind and eventually your life. If you are going to the same spots, looking at the same people, but yet, hoping for a new result, chances are it won't happen. Be free and open to explore places you've never been to and things you've never done. No one likes a stick in the mud (insert a laugh here, it was one of my corny jokes).

Try a night out at a live jazz spot, art gallery, wine tasting events, new/local restaurants, poetry readings, comedy showcases, etc. Now please take note that we are in this new adventure together. So some and most of the things that I suggest to you, I am either doing, have done, or is looking into them as well. My point is, step out of your comfort zone or that everyday routine and try something different. Throw on that dress you've had in the back of that closet and go out dancing. Put on those tennis shoes and go burn off some steam at the gym. Just do something that will take you away from what you've been doing.

Now go ahead and enjoy life!!!
BREAK THE SILENCE OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE!!

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

"THE CONVERSATION " by HILL HARPER



You all know by now that I'm a bookworm with all of my heart. I learn from all genres of reading sources and enjoy the quote that says, "Don't judge a book by its cover." Being single has allotted me to research the dating world of men and women on every level from the initial greeting to jumping the broom on the rose petaled aisle of the church house. I came across this book several times and passed it up to read other titles that were on my long wishlist of novels at Borders bookstore.

"The Conversation" by Hill Harper is an easy read as I suggested in my Monthly Reading Suggestion for January 2011 on my website. It was a page turner for myself and the message that stood out to me was a scientific discovery of oxytocin:

"Did you know that there is a hormone called oxytocin that is released by both men and women during sex? Oxytocin is called the "bonding hormone" because it is secreted into women's bloodstreams during breat-feeding to bond mother to baby. Oxytocin is responsible for the feel-good feeling we all get when we cuddle or have an organsm. But here is the trick: Women's bodies secrete more often than men's bodies do, and women have more receptors in their bodies for the hormone. What does this mean? It means that every act of affection or sex is more biologically significant to a woman. Her biology has set her up to bond with every human who causes the release of this hormone....."

I mentioned this because of the overall discussion in the chapter of this book......read it for yourself...LOL!!! Men were basically saying that when they are engaged in sexual activities and behaviors, it's just that.....sex! Most or some women take a different scenic route, they are emotionally attached to the act if not including the partner as well. Some women can adore the physical intimacy with the person but yet NOT be attracted to their partner. I understood this concept more and more as I turned the pages in this book. Am I shocked at this male-dominated revelation? Of course not! It just made me do more of what I do best once my neck roles or eye(s) twitches at a comment....I conducted more research!!!

Hill's book is an exceptional read for the single, married, divorced, widowed or just the friendship bonds between male and females. Pick up your copy today!

BREAK THE SILENCE OF DOMESTIC VIOLENCE & HIV/AIDS!!!