THE EXPERIENCE

As I look back over the journey that has bought my arrival to the present, what a trip! Circumstances and decisions that were made allowed me to be at peace within my soul and have no lack thereof. I would go into remission if I didn’t allow myself the time, consistency and determination to accomplish every goal and task that was destined before me, along with prayer and fasting. I now know that the adversities and burdens that I endured, was for this experience I now have. I firmly believe God allows such trials to motivate us into better human beings that He created us for. The word says in Ecclesiastes 3:1, “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven”. I believe wholeheartedly that God new the time and season where my life would impact a society of hurting women and children.

I don’t come to you nor claim that my faith in God was a seed planted at an early age. Sure I was bought up in the church but I had no clue of who God really was in my life until recent years. How did my faith grow, you ask? Daily! There were times where I too doubted the Almighty or rushed my plan to be His priority. God doesn’t expect us to be perfect, He knows all about our flaws and imperfections. The best experiences I’ve had with God were in those midnight hours, literally. I am an earthen vessel that God has called to speak loud and clear to His hurting children that suffers from domestic violence. He’s given me the courage I need to comfort those in need and the tears to share of my own experience of domestic violence. So I say again, I don’t come to you nor claim my faith in God was a seed planted at an early age. It was a tragic experience that allowed my light to shine today.

How? Why? When? Are all the questions society asks of me daily about my experience with domestic violence! Sometimes I can recall the memories and other times I know it was the Holy Spirit that has allowed such memories to be erased. Sometimes I even get frustrated because this calling requires you to lead by example. So if that means being single, not shacked up with and to a man that isn’t a part of His plan, I must pass up countless opportunities of lust. I know my rewards and completion comes from God and not mortal man.

You must know with this experience you carry the weight of a lot of wounded souls. Of stories and physical scars of women, teenagers and children that might not ever go away. This experience here is a lifestyle. It continues on in your life after you’ve conquered the storm. How do I speak so boldly and confident now about such a hidden topic? It was the years of tears and the yells of pain that allowed me to forever break the silence of domestic violence. I can reassure you, it didn’t come over night. Prayer and fasting became daily rituals not anniversaries celebrated in my life.

I ask of you, what is your experience? Have you shared it with a family member, friend, co-worker or whomever that is the nearest person sitting next to you? Someone is out there with ears awaiting the opportunity to hear your experience.

My prayer is that you be blessed in all that you do and enjoy the experience!